17 October

Small changes like seeing the afternoon sun (and moon) after months. Walking from GK2 to Nehru Place like I used to when I lived in CR Park.

Back home to feed the dog and listen to reggae records. I am trying to regain a little Buddha-nature and not be impressed by the world and people in front of me. I finally have a fully internal loop on which my train of thought runs. I no longer need look for askance or justification for my existence.

I occur because I am. I no longer wonder about other human beings around. This little ledge of peace took days of climbing up the wet hillside crying in the rain. Now I can reach into darkness and feel the empty other side. I hope to imbibe some of the darkness. It will be my home as well.